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Oversleeping

leads to depression, but i dint know what to do because i am very bored.


Posted: 5 months ago

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My gift

my gift is resilience. I may go down but i always come back up. I would make An excellent boxer. I never quit. I never say die. Soccer teams ive played for missed out on an opportunity. All they had to do was say We know you can give us more. Show us what you got. Or, i expect better from you. I wish people held me accountable like this cause it would fire me up. 


Posted: 6 months ago

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Stayed up all night

i was up all night..dont know whether it was late supper or because i was thinking about really attacking my exams. In any event. Im exploring just dealing with being tired. I see i like to make tall tales out of what im experiencing. As though when i am tired im someone who pushes the boundaries 😂😂😂but doctors do 24 hour shifts all the time. It is the same with blowing my amount of time studying out of the water. My brain creates a story of how significant these moments are when in fact they are not so significant just the brain makes it seem so. I think can handle being tired and still studying. 


Posted: 6 months ago

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I cant/ i can

I cant meditate consistently for long periods every day. At the same time. 
I can meditate sporadically and for short or long periods
i cant handle speaking with people all day. I can handle soeaking with people for two hours In a day
i cant do the class work for chinese and i cant solve the problems in the text. I can listen to the recordngs and translate the conversations 
i cant be calm and friendyl like francis all the time. I can have friends who are forgiving. 
i cant do perfect. I can do imperfect. 
I cant keep my temper. I can apologize when i lose my temper, i can keep learning to manage it. 
i cant do tests. I can enjoy learning the material.
i cant have my work compared with others all the tIme. I can create work and have good friends enjoy it with me
i cant study at the same time everyday. I can study when I feel like I can. 
I cant look good every day and make a good impression. I can sometimes really make a great impression for a short period.
i cant handle having lots of friends. I can handle having a few good friends. 



Posted: 7 months ago

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