The Heart of the Buddha's Teaching
I have been meditating regularly for three weeks now, seeing my mindfulness counselor a couple of times, and reading a lovely book, "The Heart of the Buddha's Teaching" by Thich Nhat Hanh. Something has shifted slowly, but also kind of suddenly-- it's like a marinade: I have been trying to marinate myself in mindfulness and wisdom and I am becoming more able to be mindful and wise.
Yesterday I came home from a day at work that was at turns annoying, frustrating, boring, depressing, and scary. My husband and I crossed paths for a few minutes at home and managed to piss each other off. I had a little time to rest before going to a dinner with friends, and I laid on the couch to read stuff online. Normally, that is just what I would do. But this time, I all of a sudden realized that I was suffering and that I needed to take care of my suffering. I put my hands on my heart and I meditated there on the couch for about 10 minutes. I took in my feelings of guilt, fear, anger, sadness, and I recognized them. I embraced them, not as I usually think of "embracing" something, not really desiring it or welcoming it, but actually thinking of embracing it like comforting a hurting friend. I'm glad that I was able to do that, and it did me a lot of good.
It is one thing for me to make goals to meditate and to meditate each morning, but it is a new step for me to realize in the moment when I actually NEED to stop and take care of my suffering.
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