A blizzard of numbers
Playing sudoku for hours until late into the night, because you can't sleep and are too tired to do anything more constructive is really counterproductive. Finding those numbers is a classic dopamine reward circuit that might get tripped hundreds of times in a session and so your brain is filled with numbers whenever you close your eyes for hours afterwards. This is pernicious and robotic and you should be able to stop yourself doing it.The breathing continues to get easier and pain in legs and torso is more manageable. The whole thing still feels like trench warfare but it is more in the mental now than the physical. I have still yet to connect with any genuine tranquillity.
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