▼emmacat — 4 years ago — permalinkBy the lack of replies to this post, I'm guessing I'm not the only one who found this question uncomfortable to ponder. The first thing that comes up is, rather predictably, I don't have enough time to sit as much as I would want to. But that's an excuse, not a reason. I used to have conversations in my head to justify not meditating, lately I don't even try. When I lie to myself, it kind of defeats the purpose of having a practice in the first place. The truth is, sometimes Idon't have the courage to connect with what's going on in my mind and heart. There are days when Im going through something painful I just can't sit before I go to work because I need to be functioning. I've been meditating for almost a year and I still have bouts of escapism. The thing with meditation is that it leaves me with no place to hide and sometimes I don't have the strength to stay with my feelings.
▼fredclaymeyer — 4 years ago — permalinkYeah, I definitely sometimes put off meditation because what's going on in my mind is uncomfortable, even though actually doing it would help hugely.
A more common problem for me is just that even when it's wonderful, meditation isn't necessarily fun. They're two different things, it seems; and fun things seem to be a lot more habit-forming...
▼emmacat — 4 years ago — permalinkHmmm... that's an interesting distinction. I can relate to that, when I have a pleasant meditation session I think: 'I wanna do it more' but I end up sticking to my planned times or even skipping it altogether the very next day. I think its because I can't really count on the next session being as good, but I know I'm going to like the next episode of my favorite show.