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emmacat (Emmacat)

Basic Info
29, female
Lives in
Rye, NH
Meditating for
1 year, 4 months
Meditation technique
Shamatha-vipashyana. Tonglen.;
Buddhism - Shambhala
Influences and sources of support
Shambhala (Meditation group (affiliated with a spiritual tradition)), Chogyam Trungpa Rinpoche (Meditation instructor or teacher), The sacred path of the warrior (Book or written material), Tonglen: the path of transformation by Pema Chodron (Book or written material), Sakyong Mipham Rinpoche (Meditation instructor or teacher)
DateDurationHow it feltPublic Comment
GoalSit at least 180 minutes per day, five days per week, for three weeks.

Current Experiences in Meditation

I struggle to practice longer than 45 minutes, but find it easy to meditate shorter than 30 minutes.

I am happy with how often I meditate
I am happy with my session duration
I feel like I understand "how to meditate"
I can meditate without much difficulty
I find meditation enjoyable
Meditation is yielding results in my life

Originally taken: 5 years ago

Meditation in Daily Life

Harsh, unfriendly attitudes toward myself
Kindness and gentleness toward myself
'Out-of-control' thinking (like unhelpful worry or rehashing past events)
Freedom from out-of-control thinking; mental stability
Feeling unable to cope with strong emotions
Feeling able to cope with strong emotions
Finding it difficult to empathize with others
Empathizing easily and deeply with others
Panicked or overwhelmed by challenges
Confident when facing challenges
Unable to process pain in healthy ways
Able to process pain in healthy ways
Little capacity to enjoy life
Great capacity to enjoy life
Lack of energy and enthusiasm
Energy and enthusiasm for life and activities
Wishing life were different
Appreciation or gratitude for life as it is
Feeling lost or bewildered by life
Feeling of broad understanding, 'attunement,' or wisdom

Originally taken: 5 years ago

Challenges in Meditation

Lack of time
Difficulty simply willing myself to practice
Boredom, restlessness
Strong emotional experiences
Physical pain or discomfort
Frustration, feeling of not "getting it right"
Philosophical or spiritual doubts
Confusion about meditation technique
Perceived lack of results or progress
Doubts about efficacy of meditation

Originally taken: 5 years ago

Motivators to Meditate

Why I'm interested in meditation: "____"

Mindfulness, "presence," clarity
Developing compassion for others
"Sub-clinical" psychological problems
Improved mood or happiness
Spiritual insights or experiences
"Clinical" psychological problems
Physical pain or maladies
Religious reasons

Originally taken: 5 years ago

Brainstorm of Reasons to Meditate

Developing patience
Maintaining sanity
Establishing discipline
Being kind to others
Being fearless

Originally taken: 5 years ago