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I decided to do a regular meditation this morning--just sitting and focusing on my breath. I was only able to last 8 minutes which makes me feel like a total failure because I kept getting distracted not only by my own thoughts but by it seemed like everything around me even though the house is totally silent right now.
I want to do this..I do.  I really do. But it's so HARD....I kept wanting to crack open my eyes and check to see how much time was left on my timer.

Maybe I need to get a mantra..that would probably help as it would give my busy mind something to focus on because clearly just focusing on my breath isn't doing it.

The entire time I was trying to concentrate, my brain kept feeding me ideas for a stand up comedy routine. Except I'm NOT a comic, nor do I wish to be one. Well ok..maybe a little bit. I've been told I can be really really funny sometimes.

I don't know. I just wish my brain had shut up for five minutes.