It was truly awesome to be able to log 4 minutes today somewhat effortlessly. I usually do silent meditations, which I still think are powerful and neccessary, but today I intitiely went with my own active meditation of sorts. This seemed to be extra helpful because of all the added pent up energy in my life right now, it helped me to focus on my enviornment and fully immerse, instead of be in a constant beattle of the resistance of the mind- disidenitifying, havng it creep back in, trying to follow the breath- I know as ram dass said, instead of identifying with the choaic mind, identify with the one ponted one. Be gentle with yourself, and bring your attention always back to the now.

So today I put on some music from yoube, I have been listening to solfeggio frequencies and reiki/mediation music, healing music, etc.- i put on a video that was only tibetian bowls tuned to 528 hz- whichi is the love frequency. I had listened to other music tuned that way but not the bowls. At first it was kind of difficut, I reset the clock twice. once was 5 inutes in- i would shuffle, i couldnt get cofmfortable and at first i felt uncomfortable with the music. Upon listeningto other music I realized the bowls (obviously) were more pure and would take me to a more genuine spot. The tones vibartyed so deeply and I put the headopphons on. Every minute, one reverb. At first the vibrations were so strong I couldnt even hear my breath and relaxed into the soundbath before me. Soon I found yself naturally hummingto the vibartion, which was trly beautiful I felt as if I was taking the healing inside and makng a comletey ambient enviornemnt....I could feel truly at peace, lie I was in an ocean of cosmic love and light- but so very peaceful and calm. a low, permeating frequency. Soon i opened my mouth and "ahh"ed, then I realized how close I was to an "Om". My throat opening like that provided even more clarity to the expierience. I could be one with my voice but disidentify from it at teh same time. I opened my eyes to see I had made it to 2 minutes effortlessly. My body hurt by this time but I still felt in my being that i should continue, so I began intuitively doing asanas. Some I would hold for the minute, but all i would move the the next pose with intention. Every time the bowl rang agin, it plastered me back to teh now, and the joy of being.

I cant let anything take me away from that.

Why make anything into a problem? Sense the resiatnce, know it is a reactionin your body from a judgement of the mind, watch the thought. Should anything truly be done? sit back. Love.

Posted: 9 years ago

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